I'm strangely attracted to a boy in my Urban Sociology class. Not physically, really - though he's not bad looking - because that's not at all what I'm looking for. He's kind of awkward; his leg is always shaking and his eyes go back and forth. And yet when he notices my gaze he holds it for a second longer than anything else. Why do I look? Because I chose not to position myself in front of the fat, red-faced professor. So instead I turn my body, nearly hidden in the back-left corner, and my eyes instead hit the right section of the lecture hall, three rows up, one seat in.  The entirety of the class is spent looking either at my computer screen or at this boy. But is this why I care? It is because he's a large part of my academic life, or because I'm actually attracted to his little tics - the only thing I half-know about him? If I changed my view, would I be attracted to another person instead? Do I only enjoy the things that I do because I'm used to it, because it's an unconscious part of my day? (Inductive reasoning - it's what I do). I ask too many questions that never get answered. probably because I never experiment.

He's not in class today. and it worries me.