uncridanslarue: I remember at the beginning of the term I would do all of my homework, all of my assigned readings, even if they were exactly what we were doing in class. no I no longer have that drive. but I should get it back. I feel like reading this entire fucking coursepack.
veryveryfalse: i think my drive has fluctuated.
veryveryfalse: it's probably better than it's been in a few years though, overall.
uncridanslarue: it's steadily decreased. maybe because there are now things in my life i find more important than school. or maybe just that those things and school are no longer so linked.
veryveryfalse: I suppose there's balance to be had somehow. but i know how hard it is to really care when you know what what you're studying for the rest of the year isn't what you want to study in the future.
uncridanslarue: true. I was taking this class just because I had to. it is in no way interesting to me. and now I have no reason. but now I also have to get through it. one more month. and I will study so hard for the exam. I'll read the entire textbook over if I have to. just to fix this stupid mistake. not the mistake of the exam, but of the course itself.
uncridanslarue: and then I want to work in the summer and save enough money for a flight to barcelona and go there alone for a week or two. without anything, really. except a camera and a pen.
uncridanslarue: I'm looking at work permit shite now.